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maf - 2004-09-08 06:32:26
ok - first of all yay to me for being first. and 7. girl BELIEVE me i know where you're coming from ... i have been there, and in many ways am still there, but i tell you ... in ALL honesty and seriousness ( and we all know i'm not serious often) you've GOT to sleep. without it, after a while, everything is too much, people are too much, alone is too much, work is too much, home is too much. try something otc this weekend to see your reaction to it .... or go to the dr. and get a script. it won't help everything, but as someone who knows what it's like to NOT sleep for weeks and weeks at a time ... sleep is our friend. and x. i don't know ya, but i love ya - and if there's anything i can do to help - shout it out.. i'll help.
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Wendy - 2004-09-08 08:05:17
maf, you are the absolute sweetest! Thanks for the advice. I have got to do something different because apparently what I am doing now ain't working worth a poot.

Super mad props to my Georgian sista for being first! :)
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Incredipete - 2004-09-08 08:11:38
Seriously... you need to take something and get some sleep. Not sleeping will just blow everything out of proportion in your mind, and things will seem much worse than they really are. I know, because I was there. Now I take pills to sleep, and I must say, I feel better and think more clearly now.

I don't believe that some people are destined to be alone. God made us to need other people. He wouldn't have done that if he didn't intend for us to be with anyone. That being said, my puppy is the only one that sleeps with me, so I understand how frustrating the wait can be.
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Wendy - 2004-09-08 08:46:20
I hear you about taking something. Pete. I just need to make sure whatever I take won�t impair me more than the lack of sleep. The fact if the matter is I have a lot of important responsibilities and I cannot, even one time, screw up.

The waiting sucks too. My dog even tends to bail on me these nights. I guess I toss and turn too much.
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HRT - 2004-09-08 10:19:48
All I can say is I concur. Last Fall I wasn't sleeping much either, but it wasn't due to insomnia, I was working, on average no lie, 16 - 18 hours a day 5 or 6 days a week. Do the math that equals up to 100 hours a week.

I would get up between 2:30 and 3am and not get to bed until between 10 and 11pm. I was "functioning" on between 3 and at most 5 hours of sleep a night. Now while this may be sufficient for SOME people, and I wasn't driving my car off the road or anything, but my night job was physically strenuous and my day job was/is emotionally taxing. So I started doing very bizarre things, and making horrible irrepariable decisions. Now I don't blame ALL of it on my lack of sleep, but I do blame a lot of it. If only because as soon as I started back on a more normal sleeping pattern, my crazy behavior stopped.

But beyond all of that, Wenderific, you are asking some great questions, not only about your health but about Life, Love and Loneliness (sounds like a great title for a book, that one's a freebie, next time I'll charge ya) and I'm coming to the conclusion that maybe we don't ever completely answer those questions, but the solution is just to keep asking them and trying to figure them out. Maybe that's what life is all about. Not solving the problem, but simply pursuing the answer.
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Wendy - 2004-09-08 10:30:20
Thanks oh wise one.
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Incredipete - 2004-09-08 11:13:22
Ambien, when taken properly and responsibly, will let you sleep deep for exactly 4 or 8 hours, and you will wake up TOTALLY alert and well rested. I've never been able to get up in the morning, because I was so groggy. Now, even with just 4 hours of Ambien sleep, I can hop out of bed feeling great.
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HRT - 2004-09-08 11:13:22
Word and fo' shizzle. Thanks for rollin' with a brutha!
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maf - 2004-09-08 11:21:39
oh and the alone thing. i get that too. and i get it the way only another girl can. guys think they understand but they don't. i don't think we're supposed to be alone - and i also tend to think there's one person who is "perfect" for us. now the one i have deemed "perfect" is already fuckin married .. so fuck me....BUT that doesn't mean that there's not another someone's son who isn't just plain wonderful and waiting for me. I can sound calm when i say that cause A. I'm on prozac and 5. I'm sleeping at night. Trust me, when you're sleeping again...all of this ( while nothing may actually change .. you're ability to handle it will be much much better ) will be fine...
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HRT - 2004-09-08 11:43:26
"Incredipete - 2004-09-08 11:13:22 Ambien, when taken properly and responsibly, will let you sleep deep for exactly 4 or 8 hours, and you will wake up TOTALLY alert and well rested. I've never been able to get up in the morning, because I was so groggy. Now, even with just 4 hours of Ambien sleep, I can hop out of bed feeling great."

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Wendy - 2004-09-08 12:31:35
To HRT: Thanks for lettin a sista roll.

To Pete: Good sex,when engaged in properly and responsibly, not only provides hours of fun but will also grant you a most restful sleep. Unfortunately for me, I am having about as much of that as I am Ambien. I know you have the Ambien hook-up. Anything you can do to help a girl out with the other?

maf, you have said it before--we are the same person. I believe there is someone special for each of us too. Sometimes,it's just a matter of getting them to recognize it and move their butt closer to us. Sometimes you gotta sacrifice. It is a complete matter of what happiness and passion means to you. I'm just sayin'..
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maf - 2004-09-08 13:40:36
wendy - my friend with benefits will be in town tomorrow - want me to send him up to you .... he is good for providing hours of entertainment .... how's THAT for a friend... willing to send my boy toy!
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HRT - 2004-09-08 14:13:13
That's funny, I really didn't think I was headed to the Atl, tomorrow, but um ok. ;^)
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Wendy - 2004-09-08 14:35:51
Send him on maf. You are the greatest without a doubt!
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maf - 2004-09-08 14:45:47
i've yet to receive the first benefit from this friendship mister!! LOL ... and wendy - expect johnny #5 to show up in full army garb .... ( it's really good - even for this liberal pacifist ... damn it's good )
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Wendy - 2004-09-08 15:48:29
I can't wait!!!
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sassykk - 2004-09-12 11:28:28
Wow- sorry I missed this thread. Fucking work, I can't play on my computer at work... Anyway...as you know I am feelin' ya on the lonliness issue. Yeah, I've got great friends and all, but like you, I can't go make sweet sleep inducing love to all of them. Well, I guess I COULD, but that would just be weird. So, for now, I will send you another big *HUG* and tell you that you are never truly alone and "The One" is out there...I'm pretty kinda sure...
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